wow I cant believe I am updating. Its been so freaking long since I have taken time to do this. I better make It good then! haha. yeah well this summer had been pretty busy for me but now all my sports are done and Its rather depressing because sports rock on! I love how people are being so immature about simple little situations and making other people feel bad for no reason. I mean, were in highschool.. most of us anways. and acting like this is childish and pathetic. I am looking forward my Junior year but I dont want all this drama because Its straight out ridiculous.
on a more less stressful and plain out better note, yesturday I went to a redwings game with my pooky, nate, caitlyn, and raachel oh and pooks dad! I had so much fun.. It took me a while to get into the game I think It kicked in when racehl compitello decided to walk up the stars in a red wings poncho with these like weird lights haha. well all I can say for that is interesing. they lost by one but It was a close comeback. I would lie if I said I didnt have fun because I had a blasttt! then I went to pookys house for the night and we swam for a long while and I had funnnn! I was like sleeping and rachel wakes up saying I need a bowl, and so courtney thought she was going to get sick so courtney was all worried. then rachel was like I am going to go home. turns out she was sleeping sorta and saying random stuff.. omg It was really funny. I guess It was one of those moments where you Just had to be there! then today I went to the doctors with them and me and her mom had a very interesting conversation about alot of random stuff, I couldnt stop laughing. courtney got this little boy to cry by making him obsessed with the chalk board and when he had to leave, well he didnt want to so he cried. courtney, you shall be ashamed of yourselfff. JK I love you and I had a FANTABULOUS time my dear!
when I came home thats when alot of stuff happened. I wanted to chill with vince today but I got so mad I left my house in a rampage and went on a long walk to settle down. I can say that It helped and I am a little better. I guess Ill update when something happens in my life that I should put It on here.
yeah well I havent updated in awhile and I got my inspiration to update again from pooky. this summer has been full for me! I am always busy with sports. I didnt think I got myself into this much stuff to the point where I have sports almost everyday. ah atleast Its a way to stay in shape I guess? haha! I have had a great summer spending time with some amazing people although I did manage to loose a best friend and I regret most of what happened. I need to move on though because ya cant live life with all these regrets. gotta have fun while you can and make the best of It!
we had a tournament this weekend at webster and we came in second! I wanted to goto seabreeze with pooky but that didnt work because we made It all the way. oh well hopefully me and her can goto the cages on friday then I have a tournament game at home which YOU should all go!
oh and I come to realize Its more important to have TRUE friends than best friends. thanks to all the true ones out their I love you all to death!
well thats all because I am lazy and well yeah! bye now lovelys.
I havent updated in forever because I am loosing intrest in this thing. I have been real busy lately too with finals and softball. finals are over though so Its all good. lets hope I passed all of them because that would be cool. I got a 86 on the math and I am happy. I thought I did alot better than that but thats okay. whos to argue?
last weekend our 16U travel team had a tourny in perry. pretty exciting. saturday we had 3 games and lost one of them. thats okay though because sunday we dominated I think. we had a game in the morning and won. and then we played again and won that and made It to the championship game againts dansville passion. everyone hates them because of the things that happened last year so we wanted revenge. we got blown in the game, It was tied and in the end someone on their team stole home and the ump called It safe. whatever, I was in the outfield and could tell she was out! then the ump left and didnt say a word probably because he knew he made the wrong call. thats okay, I am sure their going to be in some of are other tournaments.. and ya know what they say! paybacks a bitch. haha.
well I am very very excited for varsity summer league basketball. shepanski called the other day to make sure I am ready and have all the forms filled. I cannot wait. I havent been on a team since school ball and I am very excited! ok new topic.. someone has been on my screen name and messing around with some people. interesting how their messing around with the people that mean the most to me?.. thats weird. anyways, If someone gets on my screen name and says crap to you please dont take It the wrong way. ITS NOT ME! no matter what they say. and If you doubt for a second It Is me please call. 334 7721 because I am sick of this crap. If your reading this and Its you.. tell me. stop hiding behind your shadow. I am like pretty sure I know who this is but I am not 100 percent sure. thats all on this topic.
alot of crap has gone down lately.. like alot. and I begin to feel like I am in the 9th grade again which is not good. I wouldnt be here without a few important people. as much as I would like to I am not going to write a little paragraph on each person. you know who you are and thank you so much. I love you guys!
ok so I really havent updated in like forever. well not really Its Just been awhile. school is finally over, and I kind of miss It. I wont see all my friends as often and I am going to miss the seniors so much. they made everything more fun and crazy. oh well I cannot wait until all the grad parties Im going to goto! fun stuff. this year has been crazy but I really miss It. I dont think I miss the school because.. whats their to miss? Its the people and friends I made. Its been a tough year for me and I wouldnt be here without any of you guys. I pretty much owe my life to all my true friends who have helped me through thick and thin. thanks, you all know who you are.
anyways, we have had about 5 softball games and we still havent won. like 6 people on my team were on JV softball if coach could actually play us at our spots we would do better! ah I hate him. we were going to fire him but he Joined the board of RHAA so now we cant. Hes a fag and I really hate to say this, but I dont like him very much at all. our teams good and we have fun. Its sad how he doesnt care about winning. whatever. on the good side of this I have a travel tourny this weekend in perry! we have 3 games on saturday! we have a game at 945 tommorow and we need to be their an hour earlier, so I have to wake up real early considering Its about an hour away. ugh I hate waking up early! oh well I am pretty excited. our team makes me laugh. Im sure Itll be one weekend to remember. yeahhhhh. and tonight me and my FHFL might hang out which makes everything better.. I hope that works out, who knows.
well I had 2 finals so far. I passed my math one with a low 90! I was pretty upset because low 90's are good but I thought I did better. that was a easy test! today I had asl and omfg talk about easy! I was done in a blink of my eye. so far the finals have made me happy because their not even hard but I still have bio, the one that worries me most! oh well. thats all for now..
..oh! and me and him are talking again! he even came over today on a surprise visit aw! I am completely happy. I havent been this happy in awhile. hopefully this time It'll last. because hes amazing. I love you.
ok well I am beginning to think that updating this Journal is worthless. honestly I just dont feel like doing this anymore. maybe I will keep it up and running for a little while longer and see what I want to do. I really see no use in the this at all..
ok well I dont really know where to start I mean I feel like every good chance I have at something I screw It up somehow. I am loosing someone real close to me and I feel like Its all my fault and I have no idea what to do. I feel like I keep disapointing people like all the time. and I find It hard to tell anyone what I really feel. the only one I can talk to about everything and anything is Ms. Prinzi. she has been a mother to me and I feel so privlaged to have her as a counselor. I can sit there crying and tell her whats wrong and she just says the littlest things that mean the world to me, I cant and never will be able to thank her enough. all the people I thought I had here for me have really showed no effort at all to understand whats happening in my life. something real bad happened last night and I decided to go on a long walk, until It started thundering then I came home and sat upstairs writting poems and listening to music. I would like If anyone wants to read some and tell me what they think. I put everything I have into my poems and I need some advice.
coony and grush - thank you both so much for being there for me I couldnt thank you enough. thou I still feel like I cant tell you everything, I can tell you enough and you never hesitate to be there. you both mean so much, and you deserve to be mentioned. thanks for giving me all you got when I need It most your both AMAZING!
Heather if you read this please now I am always here for you. I know things are different and Its been hard. but we have the whole summer to fix this hole. I promise things will get better. and even If they dont which they will, just know that I care about you so much, your an amazing friend and I cant thank you enough. I am always going to be here for you wheather you tell me what you feel or you dont. nothing will change how I feel. the only thing that will change is our friendship. Its going to get stronger. we have been very busy, and now we have the whole summer. things will fall into place - I promise. BFF FHFL
ok thats basically It for now, Im in school and have nothing to do because our teachers let us sit around and do nothing what so ever. I have a game tommorow against coonys team and I am praying to GOD It gets cancled. our team really needs some help, I think if we actually had a coach that knew the sport we would be pretty decent oh well. maybe It can rain again and cancle the embarassment from my life.
I feel like everything I do is a failure, and no matter how much I try to fix current relationships with friends, nothing changes. I am not going to give up but I really dont think things will change. I dont know what to do..
ok thats all.. maybe you can comment because I like to hear what you have to say. thats all for now, so byeeeeee!
well I really havent updated in a few days because of no reason really. just real busy to actually sit down and do this. but I am in school so why not waste some non effiecent time and do this. haha. ok well let me see here
friday I went to school like usual and then later that night court came and picked me up and we went to coonys for the night! I had fun but I always do with them. I want to thank both of you for always being here for me and being trust worthy. It means alot! yeah so we went on a walk to winslow and got to talk alot and swing on the swings. then when we got back to her house her sister Alaina took us to starbucks and I got a carmel frappachino. except all the carmel stuck to the top of my mouth haha megan. oh well, carmel frappachinos are good no matter what! then we went to her house and chilled. fun stuff man.
saturday I basically chilled at home all day long eating freezepops and watching college softball games. then later that night I left to go play poker! I won. yay! that doesnt happen too often. that was pretty much my saturday. yup, sounds like you missed out huh? ha
sunday was pathetically hot if you ask me. I begged mom to turn on the AC and I felt like I was in heaven. sunday was sam, my brothers, birthday. so we went out to eat and what not! haha they sang to him and he was laughing so hard. I thought that was funny. then at dinner my dad had to start throwing food and I chucked something at him and the food missed and hit the floor. and the people next to our table were like wtf. I wanted to shoot my dad I felt embarassed like beyond belief. then I came home and got my softball stuff on and went to 18U practice. pretty intense. real hot outside so I kinda wish I wasent there. I had fun though and were having alot of tournaments this summer, kind of excited! then I went home and celebrated sams birthday with the family. I was mad because he made alot of money. my birthdays coming up soon though - and I am gonna get more. haha.
today has gone pretty well besides for the weltering weather. I wore a skirt so I wouldnt be as hott but I still feel like I am going to pass out due to this dreadful weather. school is boring. all we do is review for the finals coming up soon. I kind of wish I stayed home all day in my AC but whatever. maybe tommorow. I didnt get much sleep last night because I was watching tennesse vs. Michigan because Michigans my team. it was the like 11th inning and I fell asleep. but they eneded up winning. so UCLA and Michigan play tonight for game 1 out of 3 for the cha,pionship. pretty excited. never thought my team would make it that far. yeah well not that you cared about any of that haha. I have a game tonight against Livonia. probably the first game I ever played that I dont care if we loose. its to hott and our teams coach is a loser. he doesnt even know the sport so how could he coach it. like honestly.. last practice the younger boys were having a more intense practice than us.. and thats sad. the game is going to be hell concidering the coach hates me, and my dad hates him. oh well.. I asked my dad why he would waste his time and goto my game and hes like " well the coach is an idiot who doesnt even know the sport so I am going to go to humor myself. " then I laughed and he said " dont be surprised if I get into a physical fight with the guy. " haha then he said " he cant hurt me, unless he uses that cane he has becasue the guy cant even walk! " omg haha oh well. coach is a jerk and he hates me! so whatever.
ok now that you know all the detail on how my weekend and monday went - I hope I amused you. haha not! I really want to just thank all my true friends for being here for me when times get rough. I finally realized who my true friends are and I couldnt thank you guys enough. thats all I wanted to say for now.
hmm well today was a great day. I am in school down in the library. so I thought why not update? I had art today and we did tie dye and that was pretty fun! then in gym I went hiking.. although I rather do softball I need the excercise. plus I am on a softball team now anyways. and me and coon might do travel.. right coon? haha! well we went someone in rush today to hike and me and Brian talked about alot of stuff. thanks alot Brian, I feel like I can tell you almost anything. and that means alot. we had fun. and that was that. tonight I am going to coonys house with grush! load of fun right there. then tommorow I am going to some poker thing.. I hope I win! I'll update later.
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